Taking Care of Remaining Time   (12.09.20)

A Metaphor:  The Path of Life - The Unkown
(The Skunk Cabbage Boardwalk - BC)

The other day I was involved in a discussion group where we were going over subjects of interest for next winter’s sessions.  They were many and varied, and, I thought, all worthy of an evening’s collaborative discussion.  While some of the topics were interesting and will give me a chance to learn something new, others were focussed on problems or perceived problems in our community, with our governments (municipal, provincial and federal), and with the financial economics of our time.  As I ruminated about the ideas, I remembered a statement by Peter Gzowski back in his CBC radio days on 'Morningside'.  He questioned, “What was the last piece of news reporting that you could actually do something about?”  That got my attention, even back then when I was in my early 30s.  Media companies must, as part of their business model, make money.  They do this by selling news, so the news had better be able to grab an audience.  Consequently, we are continually inundated with a lot of spectacular news ‘…that we can do nothing about.’

After our discussion group meeting, I once again thought about how to approach the next stage of my life.  I know that I want to focus on positive thoughts and attitude, although I don’t want to be a Pollyanna.  Less and less do I want subjects on my mind that will worry me or get me wound up only to realise that I’m not in any position to help or change things.

There was a time when I was an ‘issue person’.  Give me an issue and I would get stuck in, learning about the subject and expounding to anyone who would listen, and even to a few who wouldn’t.  This didn’t always endear me to my managers, especially those that I worked under as a senior engineer in a consulting company.

It is sometimes difficult to realise that I no longer have much impact on what is coming for our children and grandchildren.  My time of influence has passed.  I suppose I can try to help the following generation realise how important some of these issues are, but I find that I’m now seldom in a place where I can influence that generation.

What I will focus on is to keep living with a positive state of mind, looking for opportunities to learn and to be creative.  I don’t want to spend my time being stressed and worried about things that I can’t change.

I will have to continue to sublimate the guilt that surfaces as I stand by and expect others who are better positioned and younger to act on an issue that I think is important.



Footnote:  

I called this Part 2 because my essay ‘Belonging’ is on a similar theme.  I’m sure there will be more.